SHE

Today I had the opportunity to sing an amazing song in sacrament! Now I normally am not one to sing in church let alone BY MYSELF! I couldn't even believe that I actually did it. My beautiful roomie Kristen aka Gerti convinced me to sing while she played the piano. She is an amazing piano player, if I had fingers like that girl I would just be so happy, not that I am not already happy for the sooo many talents God has given me.

When I was originally praying I was thing asking, "Heavenly Father, please don't let me embarrass myself! I don't want to sound horrible"! But I just was just getting this nervous feeling of my throat getting dry and my hands were shaking. During the waiting period, I was praying, but this time I think in a much better way. I realized that the reason why I was doing this was not to sound good in front of people, or to have people want me to sing for other things but rather the reason for singing had to be, for the members. I had to swallow pride and realize it's okay I don't sound amazing.

I reflected on a time that I had heard a few girls singing in sacrament. A couple of my friends afterwards laughed at them because they were not perfectly in tuned BUT I fell in love with their song! I really felt the spirit so strongly when they sang. I tried to apply that to my song today. I realized that it didn't matter how well I sang, it didn't matter if I was in tune or if I smiled. I had to be the facilitator of the spirit. The spirit is not prejudice as long as you worthy of it.

I decided to start praying to allow the spirit to touch i love richard the hearts of those that were listening, that they could internalize it and realize either the worth of women or their very selfs. The song was called "She" by Cherie Call. It is about a women who does not realize her worth. Now there is something so great about this women, she appears to be an everyday women. BUT there is something different about her, well I could explain BUT the song lyrics are just a must read so here they are!

SHE

(Cherie Call)

She is not the picture on the magazine
She's the woman just behind you at the checkout stand
She may appear to be common but she mystifies
In all the ways the wisest men and children understand
'Cause she has eyes that sparkle with her love
And she has a smile that's as gentle as a dove
And no woman from a movie or an ad could ever hope to be
As beautiful as she

She is not a highly honored diplomat
Held responsible to lead the world to peace
But what she does is every bit as serious
Amidst the turmoil everywhere that will never cease
'Cause she has hands that wipe the tears away
And she has a voice that makes everything O.K.
And no woman from the papers or T.V. could ever hope to be
As indispensable as she

And it breaks my heart every time I see her wonder
If she means anything in this world that pulls her under
And she doesn't always see the way that Heaven smiles above her
That's the reason I try to always tell her that I love her

'Cause she may not be known for giving millions
To the charities and auctions on the news
But I believe she's given more than anyone
In all the times she's ever had to choose
To give up sleep to rock her children every night
And give her heart to always hold their dreams so tight
And the best that you or I could ever hope to be
Is as wonderful as she

And the best that you or I could ever hope to be
Is as wonderful as she


My friend Alisha made this song way easier to sing. I felt peace when I could look out into the crowd and see her smiling at me. I knew that no matter what or how good I did she would still think the world of me. She is such an amazing lady,  I just love her! 


What else also helped was I was looking throughout the congregation and seeing so    many women, and I could see their potentials and how most don't realize how amazing they really are. I feel so blessed to be associated with such amazing women of the church. I am such a blessed lady!  


Here are some of my ladies that I dearly love and sang for!

I love to see the temple!

I have such a wonderful privilege and blessing to be able to go to the temple every week!! The San Antonio temple is literally 20 minutes away. They, about a year ago, opened up every Wednesday morning  to those that are not endowed for baptism. The temple would provide 10 names, awesome right?? Its really unlike smaller temple to be like that. Not all temples have the opportunity to be open all the time and have so many members so like those temples in Utah and Idaho. 


I just looooove going! I can tell a huge difference in my life when I don't get to go. I have a beautiful temple buddy, who is probably one of the most amazing women in my life right now. Christen Shoen has such a large love and understanding of the temple and holds it to be so sacred. 


Taking pictures is one of my many habits that I love to do. I thought I need to get back on the band wagon and practice and try to develop this talent, since God asked us to.  Anyways I hope that y'all enjoy these pictures as much as I enjoyed taking them. I hope that it will encourage you to try and take advantages of the temple and go more often. The temple's doors are always open and just waiting for you to dive into the spirit that it and come closer to our Savior and Heavenly Father.


There is something that you get out of the temple that you just can't get anywhere else. The only place that can come close to that is our homes, if we allow it to. Temples are a place where we can receive revelations from high, when you have a time in your life where you seem lost or confused then that becomes the ultimate prerequisite to go. Even if you don't seem that way, go anyways! It's just wonderful! Ezra Taft Benson has promised us that as we increase our temple attendance, we will have increased personal revelation and the spirit. 


I urge you to go! Take the time out of your busy schedule, I promise you it is worth it and you will be a much happier people if you just make that commitment.

"You are never lost when you can see the temple. The temple will provide direction for you and your family in a world filled with chaos. It is an eternal guidepost which will help you from getting lost in the 'mist of darkness.'"

—Gary E. Stevenson 

"As we touch the temple and love the temple, our lives will reflect faith. As we go to the holy house, as we remember the covenants we make therein, we will be able to bear every trial and overcome each temptation."

Thomas S. Monson

"There exist a righteous unity between the temple and the home. Understanding the eternal nature of the temple will draw you to your family; understanding the eternal nature of the family will draw you to the temple."

Gary E. Stevenson

When you come to the temple you will love your family with a deeper than you have ever felt before. THE TEMPLE is ABOUT FAMILIES

"Temple. One other word is equal in importance to a Latter-day Saint. Home. Put the words holy temple and home together, and you describe the house of the Lord!"

Boyd K. Packer

Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: 

only love can do that.

Peace begins with a smile.... SO SMILE!

The temple is the library of learning. Learning has liberated more people than wars in history. 

It is the deepest desire of my heart to have every member of the Church worthy to enter the temple.

Howard W. Hunter

Let us be a temple-attending people. Attend the temple as frequently as personal circumstances allow. Keep a picture of a temple in your home that your children may see it. Teach them about the purposes of the House of the Lord. Have them plan for their earlierst years to go there and to remain worthy of that blessing 

I LOVE THE TEMPLE!!!!

I hope that I can find someone who loves the temple as much as me, who is willing to go very often, go on dates together there and when life gets a little hard to go there, find peace and understanding .

Come kiss me in the rain!....please

I had in mind of writing  something much different today, but I figure "HEY, this is my blog! I am going to write what I am feeling, right now!"

After a long night shift at work, I lay in my bed sleeping like a wee little baby when all of a sudden I see a flash through my "black out curtains" that lights my room and a monstrous roar. My heart immediately skips a beat for the pure enjoyment that my soul has for the rain. It brings me back to home, when I was younger, where we lived, would have multiple days without electricity, do to storms. As our family would huddle by the fireplace, cuddling in close to keep warm and to feel the save embrace of my father. Those as a child were my most prized memories, these days I knew that my dad loved me and would be that protector that I had always wanted.

Nothing could be so soothing than of a lullaby of a the rain falling against the roof and then with a few extra sounds of thunder would cause terror to the hearts of child. Rain has the uncanning ability to bring various emotions and spark memories into our imaginations. Rain the wingman to love and romance, just think of your most favorite romance, and yes even you boys (I know you have watched a few). Every girl longs to fall madly in love and have the opportunity to be able to have that infamous passionate kiss in the rain. I am not sure what it is but it just sounds like one of the most thrilling thing. Yes, a kiss in the rain equals thrilling. Although, it just can't be any kiss. Here lets take a look. Probably THE most famous rain kisser are you guessed it the notebook. Although I have actually never seen this movie, I have seen this picture a billion times. Here we had once young love, she left him for some sort of reason, and she never receives one letter from her. How her heartaches for the man she loved so dearly to write her, at least once. Many years later they find themselves again together, her still heart broken self runs to him and ask,
"why didn't you write me"? He responds like a super stud!
"I wrote you 365 times, everyday for a whole year"!

Can you say wowzers, what kind of man just does that? Not sure, but thats got to be love. Now this leads to the scene where she is awww struck by his charm and good looks. They embrace each other and the infamous kiss begins and women, well we just start balling. Now, not our of sadness but rather happiness for the couple. How adorable right!?! Now thats the kind of kiss I am longing for! I could make a very large list of the passionate kissing, but I will only write a few.

Breakfast at Tiffany's

Spiderman

Cinderella Story

Pirate of the Caribbean

Needless to say I just love the rain. Not just because of the romantic part of it. There are many many other reason. I actually secretly LOVE to dance, I am just really bad at it! One thing I love is to just go out there by myself and just twirl around. I feel so free, like there is not a care in the world. I also love when someone I am dating grabs my hand pulls me in close, smiles, gives me that look and we dance. Even better is dancing in the rain. Man I am a hopeless romantic, I said I would move away from the romantic part but well... I just didn't.


Dancing in the rain with a partner. Nothing has to be special about this dance step, no need for twirls or dips just the closeness of each other. Enjoying a good laugh, talk or just gazing into our "pools of eternity" hahahahahahaaha!! So simple... yet so profound. Here is probably my favorite painting, one day I will 1. Do this on a beach somewhere in the rain, probably washington because well it is always raining there 2. Have this painting on my wall of my house.

I will end with a taylor swift song
"sparks fly"
LOOOOOVE this song!! 
The way you move is like a full on rainstorm
And I'm a house of cards
You're the kind of reckless
That should send me runnin'
But I kinda know that I won't get far
And you stood there in front of me
Just close enough to touch
Close enough to hope you couldn't see
What I was thinking of

Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
'cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile
Get me with those green eyes, baby, as the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
'cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile

The chase!

Well, haven't written in a very long time. I really don't think I can keep up with a blog. I decided there will just be no rhyme or reason to this blog. I will just write all my thoughts, recipes, and just really anything. I think it would be way more interesting for myself :)

I have been talking to my friend about "The Chase". I just got out of a relationship and it has driven me to think what do I want and what do I need to do differently. I have been learning ALOT about it, and it's just great.

Remember when you are kids and you are playing on the playground and the most popular game was the boys always chasing the girls. It doesn't matter what language, country or person you are it always happened. Chasing was a universal language, if I chase you I think you are kind of cute, in a kidish way.

My question to you is, when did this chase stop, and why doesn't this apply to now? Maybe it's just me but I think times are changing and we are seeing a lot more of the girl chasing the boy. I think its rather pathetic on both sides. I think we as women are so excited and eager to get into relationships and we find a great catch that we just are so afraid that if we don't chase it, it will just fly away and we wont have a chance with that "awesome" guy.

Then we have the male specimen.... oh boys... They have been coming so use to this women's rights and us being able to speak for what we want that, they just let it happen. Men know now that women will just come flocking to them, they just wait it out.

I feel that as women we need to surpress those feelings a little more and men, they just need to quit being so lazy and go on some dates. Just because you go on a few dates with someone doesn't mean that you are having to commit to anything.

Needless to say... I just want to be chased. I want someone to want me, that they are so willing to wait till I am ready. I don't want to have to date exclusively right away, or kiss right away because I feel that will keep him around. I want to go at my pace and if its too slow for him then, he isn't worth my time. Time is what I need in whom ever I date next. I want them to be my friend first and then later we can work on becoming soul mates.

Hope

Today I am at working  struggling to stay awake through my shift, being rather exhausted and a little emotional. Not emotion because of your typical girl hormones or your pitty parties but rather the emotions I am feeling for gratitude to my savior. It's been a ruff past few weeks from my truck breaking down, losing a boy friend, school, family health issues and drama. But because of these times it has forced me to rely on the best source of stength, my savior.

I read one of my friends blogs and she talked about hope. The hope the savior has given me helps me find peace and strength to keep going right now. I can see the saviors hand through out my life, even when times were tougher and I seemed to be barely hanging on for dear life. He carried my through those times and gave me Wonderful growth, growth that has still effects me today.

The light will soon come and the dawn will break. For now though I must focus my efforts in increasing my dependance on Christ, my savior. I am incredibly blessed and most times I feel like I never deserve it because of my soooo many imperfections. Why does the savior love me so much? I guess the world may never know but I have felt feelinf reassured of his continuos love.

So sorry if this doesn't make sense. I am writing this on nearly empty. 3 hours left woooohoooo!

First long run!

Now that I am back on the bandwagon of running I have been loving it!! I can't believe I stopped running, to be honest I am not sure why I even stopped?? OH WAIT!! I remember!! I was stuck in a blizzard haha! Oh good ole iceburg, I mean rexburg. Its hard to run in 10 degree weather, it just hurts my lungs.

I heart cholula!

 Anyways I felt really great about my run today. I was surprised that my pace was so good, since I haven't really been running, probably over 6 months. I ran 10 miles today, my pace was 9:04, not to bad eh? I am pretty excited! Here is what I ate after my run today and I am pretty sure it's one of my most favorite breakfast's.... maybe..... well actually I really love a good smoothie or oatmeal..... so really I just love a lot of things and this happens to be the things I currently love the most.






It's super easy.

• 1tbs olive oil
• 1 egg
• 1/2 cup egg whites
• onions
• zucchini
• artichoke hearts
• garlic pepper

1. start up your pan add the olive oil and cut up onions, to your liking. For a couple of mins
2. Add zucchini again to your liking, I like to cut mine in half. Once everything is browned add the artichoke hearts and garlic pepper
3. Add the egg and egg whites and just stur till everything is cook
4. eat and enjoy a high protein mean with lots of veggies. It's good that you try and get veggies into our meals. I feel veggies are the hardest, yet the most important food that we can eat.

Little revelation to myself, I am beautiful!

UGH!!!! Man sometimes I just hate our society! Why must we all have to try and be these perfect people, with perfect bodies, perfect families and perfect lifes???

Isn't just being ourselves good enough anymore? Isn't trying to be best, to be our potential, enough??

I am so tired of people always telling me I am not good enough when in reality, I AM!! I am such a beautiful person. God made me the way I am for a reason... I am going through the refiners fire and I am progressing and to be honest I feel that it's just enough right now in my life.

May not be the skinniest or the most beautiful looking BUT I love the way God created me. When did society decided that you had to be a certain way. Why can't we embrace our difference; our different body shapes, our different personalities. I am tried of feeling bad for not being a stick! I am a very healthy women, I work out and I eat within moderation.

I am at this point that if my Creator wanted me to be skinny, goodness gracious he would have made me that way. I am not going to let that control my life anymore! If someone tells me other wise, I am quite frankly just not going to listen because I just don't care anymore.

Now I am not saying I am going to all of a sudden start eating unhealthy because that defeats the purpose. The purpose here is to just be as healthy as possible and then accepting what you look like. Accepting that God put you together just the way he wanted. We are beautiful individuals. I have this thought....

God is perfect right?? And God made you?? Do you think an imperfect being would be so naive to make something that wasn't perfect? NO! Not at all! This kind, merciful being full of love and compassion made YOU just the way he wanted! So why change that? Why try to redefine what God has perfectly made? 

Just somethings to ponder... Go out find a place, make a resolution to speak out and be not just okay but happy with who you are. And find who YOU truly want to be, seek deep into your thoughts and talk with God. He is a great listener :) And remember you are beautiful!